DEPRESSION AND WRITER’S BLOCK

Some people will tell you writer’s block doesn’t exist, and I don’t know, maybe it doesn’t, but over the course of the last couple months, for me, well . . . if it wasn’t writer’s block, what the hell was it?

I have never been formally diagnosed with depression, though on occasion I have been treated with prescription drugs for anxiety and panic attacks. Around the time of the release of Baldur’s Gate, I went into a period of wild mood swings, debilitating panic attacks that had me up all night one night, crashing the next, and repeating that cycle day after day. I still don’t know the cause, or if there even was one. Was it that I had just released a book I knew wasn’t good, had found out too late didn’t even mirror the actual story of the game upon which it was based? I had a trip to Disneyland with my wife and daughter planned and I started to descend into a terror over flying—a full-on phobic meltdown. I made the decision, which seemed like a good idea at the time, to stop drinking any caffeinated beverages of any kind, cold turkey. And at least one doctor told me it was because I was around the age of 35 and everybody loses it at 35(ish). Really? Maybe it was all of those things.

Honestly, I’d rather you didn’t.

But that was a lot of years ago, and though I’ve had the occasional bout of anxiety, depression, and much smaller less debilitating panic attacks, I’ve gotten a million times better—almost all better. I even beat the flying thing and now fly prescription drug-free. And for the record, live recreational drug-free all the time.

But this has been a tough couple years. Exciting, yes. Full of interesting new challenges, for sure. But also stressful. Money remains a constant source of stress, along with some other things—nothing weird or terrible or tragic. Nothing they’d produce a Lifetime movie about—just mundane stresses of modern life in the Great Depression II.

I poured my heart out on a lot of this around New Year’s time. I was feeling the beginnings of this round of depression then and it’s carried through for the last couple months, finally spiking a few weeks ago to the point that I actually finally went to the doctor, got on a small dose anti-depressant, and made serious changes to my lifestyle: diet, exercise, scheduling, workload, etc.…

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11 Responses to DEPRESSION AND WRITER’S BLOCK

  1. lynxchild says:

    Wonderful post. I struggle with depression myself, and this post says a lot that I believe writers should be aware of. Permission to reblog (using the reblog function, giving you credit, of course)?

  2. lynxchild says:

    Reblogged this on writingatmidnight and commented:
    Not a post I wrote myself, but a valuable message, one I felt was worth sharing. Reblogged with permission.

  3. jakeescholl says:

    Writer’s block is very real. I had it for years, and I still deal with it sometimes. It effects every writer. I will definitely re-blog this. 🙂

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